What a girl!

What a girl!
Sept 30th


So here i am once again, and since I'm the one that monitors our website, i realize the importance of these blogs. The big question is, how work related should these be? and man oh man, that is a good question. Our personal lives are what makes us who we are, and in return makes us such a unique company. In my opinion if each of us had all strictly work related blogs, then Andrew, Loc, Steve and myself would all have pretty much the same blog just written differently. To me that seems redundant... So the answer seems clear. Now don't get me wrong,if the word comes from Greg that we need to focus more on just work, then it will be done. but hey, while looking over the analysis software of our website, i found out that my blog has the longest view time so i think I'm doing something right... Or something terribly wrong (lol)...

So me being me, i never really hide much. There is no point to do so. personally think that life is far to serious, so that is why i don't take much serious. Now just like anyone else in the world, i have emotion. I get depressed, i get sad, i get happy, hyper, have ups and downs... but as of recently everything is changing, and it is the best feeling i have ever felt.

In my prior blogs, i always have said I'm going to be the "uncensored one" of HHP, but unfortunately i have to admit that is a lie on this particular blog... I don't want to burn bridges, especially the bridge I'm trying to cross. However i will speak my mind and tell you how I'm feeling. I'm not ashamed of what is going on at all, i just don't want to be the cause of any issues. so no names will be mentioned. alot of people may know exactly whom i am talking about. And oddly enough alot of people are rooting for me on this one... So here we go......

Above where i wrote "that everything is changing" i should first explain myself in more depth. Previously I have had the tendency of being withdrawn for relationships. I would normally just enter them for the conviniece of companionship (sorry x-girlfriend whom i still talk to), not really the companionship itself. I knew with the priors that there was no future. so with those girls i never argued, never fought, i just avoided confrontation. Alot of of my prior relationships actually end with them saying to me "your to nice"... Seriously!!! I hate that line so freaking much, but i would never put up a fight. Why even bother to put effort into something that was pointless. That like making a new Editing program compatible with windows 95... sorry i get off track so easy. anyways..where was i...oh yeah... at the end of most of my relationships my parents where more upset than i was, never really understood that but whatever. The initial shock would be the worst part but 2 days later I'm good. However there was alot of adjusting to do. I was what some people may call jaded in the relationship department.

Then Came #%&^$#@#$%, and everything changed. and when i say everything changed, i mean everything. My hole view on relationships got flipped upside down. As if i have been in the dark for years and just now i found the light switch and flicked it on... and there she is! I became a real affectionate person. constantly holding her as if i never wanted to let her go. Priorily i use to be quiet selfish, i just cared about me, and a few select others. But when !@#$%^&*() came along i don't even think about myself now, i think of us. Its just so new to me... a HUGE Part of me is glowing... i have never felt this way. when we are together I'm just so relaxed, calm and everything is just simple. There is no "he said/she said", there is no jealousy (well on my side...not sure on hers)

The other side of me is scared shitless. I cant play the cool, carefree guy anymore. what if i screw up everything, what if i come off to strong, what if i look like I'm not trying. its a paralyzing feeling! It brings me right back to my chubby Junior High School days. (however i can handle it much better now) It is just so intense I'm sure alot of this doesn't make sense to alot of people, but this is just me opening up... another kinda of crappy part ( depends how you look at it) is i am not sleeping to well lately. i just sit there like a gitty school girl on Christmas Eve. The weird part is i would do anything to keep this going... i guess that isn't weird... Just new to me!


I love you ................................. Call of duty 4 : modern warfare for xbox....seriously reread everything now knowing i was talking about a video game.... OR WAS I?????? lets recap in video game version ..............................................
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What a girl!
Sept 30th


So here i am once again, and since I'm the one that monitors our website, i realize the importance of these blogs. The big question is, how work related should these be? and man oh man, that is a good question. Our personal lives are what makes us who we are, and in return makes us such a unique company. In my opinion if each of us had all strictly work related blogs, then Andrew, Loc, Steve and myself would all have pretty much the same blog just written differently. To me that seems redundant... So the answer seems clear. Now don't get me wrong,if the word comes from Greg that we need to focus more on just work, then it will be done. but hey, while looking over the analysis software of our website, i found out that my blog has the longest view time so i think I'm doing something right... Or something terribly wrong (lol)...

So me being me, i never really hide much. There is no point to do so. personally think that life is far to serious, so that is why i don't take much serious.(People online get way to into COD4, and way to emotional) Now just like anyone else in the world, i have emotion. I get depressed, i get sad, i get happy, hyper, have ups and downs... but as of recently everything is changing, and it is the best feeling i have ever felt. ( I just got a bunch of new gun perks, and downloaded the new level pack and they are awesome)

In my prior blogs, i always have said I'm going to be the "uncensored one" of HHP, but unfortunately i have to admit that is a lie on this particular blog... I don't want to burn bridges, especially the bridge I'm trying to cross. (that's literal, i have to cross the bridge to capture the flag) However i will speak my mind and tell you how I'm feeling. I'm not ashamed of what is going on at all, i just don't want to be the cause of any issues. so no names will be mentioned. alot of people may know exactly whom i am talking about. And oddly enough alot of people are rooting for me on this one... So here we go...... ( Josh routes for me as i kick ass in the warehouse level)

Above where i wrote "that everything is changing" i should first explain myself in more depth. Previously I have had the tendency of being withdrawn for relationships. I would normally just enter them for the convinience of companionship (sorry x-girlfriend whom i still talk to), not really the companionship itself. ( I use to buy a game and play it for a few hours, till COD4 came out) I knew with the priors that there was no future. so with those girls i never argued, never fought, i just avoided confrontation. Alot of of my prior relationships actually end with them saying to me "your to nice"... Seriously!!! ( any other online games i have i usually just stay quiet and in return i get a great user score) I hate that line so freaking much, but i would never put up a fight. Why even bother to put effort into something that was pointless. That like making a new Editing program compatible with windows 95... sorry i get off track so easy. anyways..where was i...oh yeah... at the end of most of my relationships my parents where more upset than i was, never really understood that but whatever. The initial shock would be the worst part but 2 days later I'm good. ( I would be really into a game and the 2 days later i just stop caring) However there was alot of adjusting to do. I was what some people may call jaded in the relationship department. (video game)

Then Came "#%&^$#@#$%4" (callofduty4), and everything changed. and when i say everything changed, i mean everything. (i played it for like 30 days straight) My hole view on relationships got flipped upside down. As if i have been in the dark for years and just now i found the light switch and flicked it on... and there she is! ( boring video games i didn't care about till COD4) I became a real affectionate person. constantly holding her as if i never wanted to let her go.(constantly playing, never putting down the controller) Priorly i use to be quiet selfish, i just cared about me, and a few select others. But when !@#$%^&*() came along i dont even think about myself now, i think of us. ( i always invite people to play it with me cause it so intense on a 42'' hd screen) Its just so new to me... a HUGE Part of me is glowing... i have never felt this way. when we are together I'm just so relaxed, calm and everything is just simple. There is no "he said/she said", there is no jealousy (well on my side...not sure on hers) (that is all literal)

The other side of me is scared shitless. I cant play the cool, carefree guy anymore. (it is a intense game!!!)what if i screw up everything, what if i come off to strong, what if i look like I'm not trying. its a paralysing feeling! ( i dont want to lose a match for my clan) It brings me right back to my chubby Junior High School days. (however i can handle it much better now) (when i was younger i sucked at games) It is just so intense Im sure alot of this doesn't make sense to alot of people, but this is just me opening up... another kinda of crappy part ( depends how you look at it) is i am not sleeping to well lately. i just sit there like a gitty school girl on Christmas Eve. (i play till all hours) The weird part is i would do anything to keep this going... i guess that isn't weird... Just new to me (cant wait till COD5)




MAN I'M GOOD!!!!

Song 1 (Tyrants and blasphemy)

Dear ladies and gents (aka mom and dad). The time is actually here to post my first song... its not the first song i recorded, but i realized i needed to do this now due to the fact the website is getting ready for its official marketing launch. With the potential of alot of hits on this site i knew i needed to add more umph to my blog. Today i was running threw all my songs which i was amazed that I'm at 32 now and trying to figure out which one is the best to give to the ol' website. Now everyone knows that you are your own worse critic and this is a perfect example of that statement. every song i recorded i tore apart. Either the levels weren't right, or i don't stay in key or i do something stupid on the guitar....Anyways i came across one of my newest songs calls "Tyrants and blasphemy" and i thought it would be suiting. The catch on this song is, there are no lyrics, well there is but i muted them (MUHAHAHAHA). This song gives a really good sense of my tone (AKA depressing). Now don't get me wrong, for anyone that knows me, I'm one of the happiest people out there. But when it comes to recording i defiantly go to a "darker" side of me. Maybe its what has bottled inside of me, maybe its just the sound i like. So yea...this is a instrumental song in which i used my newest synth to rock out a very odd pulsating sound.



Now that i have noted all the changes to the other songs i want to make. I will be posting other complete song soon. Ones with vocals and guitar and the full nine. "Tyrants and blasphemy" holds really no meaning to me, just gives me a feeling similar to all my other songs... Down the road ill probably add some synth drums and maybe some looping vocals but for now its the most suiting for my Internet release.



In my upcoming releases I have decided to do something that is totally outside of normal am like. But what the hell, i only live once. down the road i will give a full description of what each song means....which is kinda risky cause i think i record in a rather unique way. i normally record a guitar track for rhythm, then jump right to the vocals. I never have lyrics written out or planned. I just "open up to the mic" and let shit just spill out. So what i record is raw. then i do backup then adding instruments.



So i hope you all enjoy and i would love to hear some feedback from all that listen....good or bad.

blog?

so this is the new blog. what am i writing about i have no clue, I have a few minutes so I'm just going to babble on till my time is up. that sounded like i am dying. So ..................ummmmmm........... this is going to be a stupid blog, so you might want to skip ahead or back. i really enjoyed the writing of my last blog. Ill probably end up writing more like that again. I hate when everything is taken to seriously... Life is serious, so you might as well make fun of it! am i right? yeah of course!

One thing i am truly missing lately is recording music, i haven't sat down and recorded a multi track song in months, i have a ton of equipment and it just sits there. I also have to do some more editing to the songs i have created and pop them on the ol' blogger. THEN......... the 11 people that have looked at my blog ..12 now (thanks Dave Veale) and you all can have a listen! Don't get me wrong or anything, i defiantly am no Alan Jackson or bonjovi, but i have fun with it. Truth be told alot of my songs are kinda depressing. Almost every song is minor key, and lyrics are never written down, just spit out. I find it more genuine. I think when i do start posting the songs ill give the full meaning of each song. We will see how long that last but might as well, i have nothing to hide.

What else have i been up to lately??? well I'm currently writing a short film i plan to do in the near future. Its going to be kind of a experimental horror/ thriller movie with a twist! yes a TWIST. I actually came up with the missing scene last night that completes my short. So I am really excited about that. That is one of the great things about working for Greg. First of all he encourages us to do our own shit, plus we access to like the dolly, cameras, lighting ect ect.. expenses lower tremendously. Plus we got this great family support thing going too!

also semi new... i Moved into my new apartment about 2 months ago on Duke st. Its perfect for me, all updated, pretty big for me and my 2 cats. there would be alot of room but i got alot of music shit in my apartment which takes up alot of space. the great part is i am even closer to work, only a 2 minute walk if i wasn't addicted to coffee. there is a strange connection to HHP and my apartment too!!!! The landlord/owner is Bryan Pelkey........WHOM lived with Greg. Great guy however. He even brought me PaiThai leftovers (also the best paithai i have ever had).

Oh i cant believe i forgot about this!! we had a big group coaching session yesterday. It was really cool. This was the first coaching session in which Greg was there. As well this was Matt Webber's (AKA hhp newest member) first session all together. The cameras where rolling for this one as this session is to be included in HHP's newest doc "Airplane journals". Since I'm one of the editors for all the coaching videos we are doing, its really neat to watch Dave do his thing. First of all Dave is great guy, but hes REALLY REALLY GOOD at what he does, after each session, I'm just pumped to work. i feel almost invincible. Just a really great feeling. I have no clue what coaching cost but if you have a business of your own, i would strongly suggest give Dave Veale a call...His company is Vision coaching. (side note to Dave....i better get commission DAVE!!!)

this is a fun blog to write cause i just don't care what I'm typing and I'm not putting in no segways to the next section....the readers must hate it...I'm not even going to proof read it, thats how insane i am.. i know what your thinking guys, " GREG, YOU ACTUALLY HIRED THIS NUT CASE". yeah anyways.. for some reason i want to talk about segway scooters, so with that being said I'll say goodbye

See no evil, hear no evil = there is a devil inside of me

1) i ran out of milk, so i couldn't make coffee. so now I'm drinking espresso

2) a 10 year old kid was pan handling and ask me for change, i said all i had was debit....i lied.

3) I don't look for cars on king street, i just cross.

4) The look of babies gums when they frantically cry annoys me

5) I can't sleep at night anymore...for about a year to be exact. Now I'm comfortable with 5 hours of interrupted sleep

6) violence on the big screen draws me in, Samuel l. Jackson has way to many movies

7) my Ginnie pig was supposedly in love with a girl in Toronto. we mailed him there. That asshole never writes!

8) i use to have 2 dogs named trex and princess....Guess which one i named?

9) If a tree falls in the woods, val kilmer will hear it

10) when you are calling from a business, about a consumer issue..it confuses call centers

11) those Interactive Voice Recognition girls don't like me.

12) paper clips have way too much work involved in them to be that cheap

13) cereal killers (ones that finish a box off in one sitting) and serial killers have alot in common.

14) that is what she said

15) does anyone remember "lion heart"? ............ KICK ASS!

16) i love getting mail. I hate getting faxes

17) we had a squirrel infestation, so i shot one, to teach them a lesson. i was never the same

18) i once ignited my microwave on fire during a fantastic art making session... don't ever tell a terrorist but crayons + wax paper + plus microwaves = BOMB!!!!!

19) I don't negotiate with terrorist

20) what if i had just got paid.....would i have given money to the kid then??

21) plagiarism is the cornerstone of todays journalism

21) plagiarism is the cornerstone of todays journalism

23) Does a bear shit in the woods??? no the excrete in the stream!

24) my generation is getting old! DAMN KIDS THESE DAYS!

25) magic mushrooms do not require tinker bell to be awesome...Just cow shit

26) Primary Colors are kick ass....... Sorry Steve

28) Don't go chasing waterfalls...stick to the rivers and the lakes that your use to!

29) If Steve asks you what color the light is, dont ever say blinking yellow!

30) When i was a young boy i wanted to be a lawyer, judge and a cop....wow that would make a great movie, with alot of thrills!

31) If i was on "step by step", i actually wouldnt be on the show, cause i would still be on that rollercoaster!

32) Here at HHP, we have 4 scanners..........WHY?

33) To have Spidermans power in saint john would SUCK!

34) I have a Iphone....Kinda big deal

35) I have finished the internet 9 times

36) people often ask me what my favorite book is. I reply "I don't read....I narrate".

37) when playing blackjack i can get 21 with only 1 card.

38) I invented a a new Vowel....unfortunatly i cant tell it to you cause its not on this keyboard.

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